sooo confused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today i learned that i can text with AIM..ITS SO MUCH FUNNNNNN...u ppl should do it...just goto http://www.aim.com/wireless/ ..have fun..

another day of total nothingness: it was sunday, a day of total nothingness. its one of those days when i'm like "why in the hell am i doing nothing?" it was SOooOO blah, geesh, no one even called me, i was like, "Omg TOtal lonesomeness!" .haha..and now i'm writing coz i want to be pitied..boooohooo.. well, i got my fridge and microwave, me so happy, in a way, blah. still lonely, sad, blah, crap, boo, i need entertainment, how about strip club tomorow..hmm..thinkin..thinkin..deciding..blah..haha..no money..no strip club..i should work..HmMmm..what do you think..do you like how i type two dots like this..mwuahahaha..i'm bored ok..yeahyeah..anyways i'm in a butchery class where i get to cut up meat and poultry in a fridge, the class is in a freakin fridge, isnt that fabulous..WoOOt..oh yeh i juss remember, MIshelle's birthday is coming up..September 18..WOoOhoo..somEboDY's turnin 19..yay..everyone pls go and tell her "ivan said happy birthday". that would be just great..." happy birthday mishy!", hope u have a blast partyin yer ass off..okEy..i'll be there in spirits..or something..lol..yeh just pretend i'm there..blah..this sucks..i wanna be there too..but yeh..BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..well..this is where is ends..bye bye..

Back in frisco... seems like i was just in san diego for a day but yeh damn time passes by so fast.. i got here this mornin around 4am earlier than what i'd expected and texted mishol, i woker her up..SOoRry babes! i miss u already!!!! Grawrrr, anyways i got bak to the dorm and slept till around 10am and some time later, cathy called to chek if i'm safe and after that, i went to my friend SEan's pad and watched some tv. my other friend Ulysis dropped by and we went to the Fisherman's wharf to eat Seafood, it was pretty good and yeh that was the highlight of the day....
well so everyone's back in school, mine starts tommorow, i know it sucks and all coz yeh i have 3 more months to go and yeh i'll be back in christmas, its gna be longer than my summer break and yeh its gna be alot better than the week that had passed. well then i'm done writin and yeh i'll blog some more later..

"Not the last goodbye..."

i know it sucks how my time here is short, and tomorow i'll be gone once again. its just not the same when i'm not around, its not that i am needed or anything but its just coz my friends here are my family for me. u all do know that when i try to please everyone as much as i can, i do it because all of you are my brothers and sisters. all the funny jokes and weird comments that i endure are just a normal thing that families go through. i once said to myself, "where do i belong?" and always wonder "where is home?" and now i've realized that home is where the family is! here in miramesa where good times wer invented...i might sound too emo or watevah but all i can say that i will, OnCE aGain! miss you all, coz the next time that i'll be around would be on christmas my christmas break, and that is just too far ahead...all i can say is just wait till my return, and its time to partAy! hope u ppl will have a great time since school and all are startin, have a nice life and a krayzieE school year!

your dear friend, ivan