kinda hard to look towards the bright side when life is just throwing misery and hardships in my direction. but alas, things are finally looking good. highlights of my life: -27 days of sobriety. -3 weeks of getting in shape. -new mind set, cleanse, reset, restart. it has been almost a month since i decided to renew my lifestyle and i find myself motivated to continue on and press forward. it is different now that i am enduring these changes, i feel brand new all of a sudden. knowing that more challenges will try to hold me back, i am sure that i can persevere. in life, i know that there will always be hardships and pain but in spite of all that, i must focus more on myself and well being. family is what matters most and my cousin helped me focus on being positive and as well as distracting myself with more important matters. i started working out. seriously sticking to a routine that beats the living heck out of me. i did not realize how expensive being fit and healthy is. but then again, i used up a good amount of my well earned money in my own deterioration. now all i can think of is self preservation. staying away from the negativity in life. i do admit that i still reminisce about the good old times spent in indulging myself with vices, bad habits and what not. "FUN" was what i called it. living right is fun also. i just hoped that more of my friends are on board with it. that's the way life goes, changes will lead to something new.