how do i feel
tday...this entry would seem weird because of the use of such big, buff, strong, n powerful words.. i just want to exercise my mind and my vocabulary... i cant remember if i ever did write in this format but yeah haha i'm smart..and just bare with it..it may sound like its not me..but ohh yes it me writing..this topic is so MONUMENTAL for me coz i never did have an issue like this so just read and have a handy dandy thesaurus.. unless yer genius..like your mom!..
Considering how i feel, love-wise, is such a hard task for myself in ways that i just cant imagine how stupid love can be. it plays with your heart, mind, consience, hopes, and desires, and its just too much to endure. Isnt it odd how people would assume things that you would never realize you had meant. By that i refer to people who understands the opposite of what you're trying to tell them. well this journal entry evolves around how i feel for a special girl and how it overshadows how i feel about another.
i have never experienced an issue that involves two of my closest female friends whom i have learned so many things from. from these people, i've learned so much that i decided to change my whole aspect of socializing. i've learned that it would be better for me to open up to everyone rather than in keeping things within me to torment and destroy myself. well, that is a dreadful thing to say but it is true. i once kept everything to myself and it basically turned me into one of those people who would do nothing for fun and waste time doing nothing. and so, now i'm in such an emotional overdrive because of what had happend during the past two weeks. i've heard things that i should and shouldnt know from their friends and from the person who i like.
from my understanding, one of them have and still has an attraction towards me but she is flawless in concealing the facts. with this on hand, my feelings were beginning to move towards her closest friend whom now i desperately like. with these facts, i figured that "I dont know what to do!"(-ivan). whether or not i act on how i feel, it seems like the outcome is predictable because i wouldnt do a thing, but i did, i've summoned my inner self to talk things through. confrontation wasnt the option i'm considering just because i never did like the act of confronting a person in regards of love or hate. i only have the courage to confront one of them, the one i like. but on the other hand, the other whom i treated as a sister, who was liking me more and more, is beginning to understand how i feel towards her friend. all i'm worried about is how she would act in regards of the confusion and the complication that i have endured upon her.
in conclusion, PLEASE HELP.
Considering how i feel, love-wise, is such a hard task for myself in ways that i just cant imagine how stupid love can be. it plays with your heart, mind, consience, hopes, and desires, and its just too much to endure. Isnt it odd how people would assume things that you would never realize you had meant. By that i refer to people who understands the opposite of what you're trying to tell them. well this journal entry evolves around how i feel for a special girl and how it overshadows how i feel about another.
i have never experienced an issue that involves two of my closest female friends whom i have learned so many things from. from these people, i've learned so much that i decided to change my whole aspect of socializing. i've learned that it would be better for me to open up to everyone rather than in keeping things within me to torment and destroy myself. well, that is a dreadful thing to say but it is true. i once kept everything to myself and it basically turned me into one of those people who would do nothing for fun and waste time doing nothing. and so, now i'm in such an emotional overdrive because of what had happend during the past two weeks. i've heard things that i should and shouldnt know from their friends and from the person who i like.
from my understanding, one of them have and still has an attraction towards me but she is flawless in concealing the facts. with this on hand, my feelings were beginning to move towards her closest friend whom now i desperately like. with these facts, i figured that "I dont know what to do!"(-ivan). whether or not i act on how i feel, it seems like the outcome is predictable because i wouldnt do a thing, but i did, i've summoned my inner self to talk things through. confrontation wasnt the option i'm considering just because i never did like the act of confronting a person in regards of love or hate. i only have the courage to confront one of them, the one i like. but on the other hand, the other whom i treated as a sister, who was liking me more and more, is beginning to understand how i feel towards her friend. all i'm worried about is how she would act in regards of the confusion and the complication that i have endured upon her.
in conclusion, PLEASE HELP.
posted by ivan @ 4:57 AM
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