and so..the last goodbye.

i'm leaving on monday, july 12, 2004, 6:45am from san diego california to maui hawaii. this is pretty early for a goodbye note but what the hell..i probably wont even have time to write this sappy goodbyes. so many things happened this year and at the same time, i regret so much things that i missed out on. well, this isnt the end of my journal but i hope it would lead to a new beginning.

as you witnessed from this blog, my life is pretty much fucked~! lol. from all of the procrastination, bitching, drunkness, blaming, bullshit, flaming rages, etc. you can tell how i've endured my life here in california, the place to be. i hate how i've alienated myself from people. i'm sorry. its my way of dealing with things but then again i know its wrong. i'll be back one day and be like, "yo!..sup man! aloha!?!?". and hopefully by then, everything will be back to the norm. i hope.
well then, i'm looking forward on goin to hawaii, i know that life will be different. work/life/girlfriend/adulthood, its all complicated stuff but i will pull through and make it on top. haha, get it..on top??!?!..hmm..ok

well looking back on what i've accomplished, a year and a half of nothing but cooking. a whole new outlook in life. a feel of comfort with different culture. teenagers loves drinking and smoking. me, food, liquors, wines, beer. i love it all. i've met many people from san francisco who are like the craziest and greatest friends ever. people such as Sean Singer, Katie Marty, Ulyses Ramirez, Richard Ramirez (the first guy i talked to in school), Jamie Coher, Jenna Lanyon, Miroslaba Lara, Elizabeth Capistrano (the girl whom ive been looking for all my life), Nicole Nellis, Tiffany Puopulo, Joana Garcia, Stephanie Navas, Jessica Vera. and many many more.

well then..i must end this now but then i have alot of things to say..i'll add some more once i'm in maui. thanks for everything..much love!